I'LL TURN THIS INTO AN FFXI BLOG IF I WANT TO.
Ahem.
I attended my first Dynamis event tonight. It was intense, to say the least. We did Dynamis-Windurst, a sort of dark world alternate dimension of Taru-city. Windurst is my home city; I've spent a lot of time there, so it was kind of spooky seeing it all dark and gloomy, and overrun by uber-Yagudo and creepy floating statues that kill you. With scary Shadowlord music.
Apparently Windurst is the most difficult of the three base city Dynamises, and we went in short on mages and damage dealers. I should start by saying that for the first hour of this, I had NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING. I hardly knew what I was doing by the time it was over, in fact. Mobs come flying in on us as soon as we enter from the residential area and for a minute I just stood there with this blank look on my face. What do I attack what do I do what do I do what do I do??? I got snapped at a few times, but once everyone learned that it was my first time they were a lot more patient with me and gave me pointers on what to do. I have a decent grasp on the strategy now, but I still have difficulty being able to tell what mobs need to be slept, stunned, and targeted when there's upwards of twenty mobs wailing on us at a time and sixty players to sift through. I think tonight may have been the first time I've ever actually used the mouse to pick out my targets (normally I use the controller to do everything).
We were doing well considering our roster for awhile, and then...

THIS HAPPENED. IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. Bitches came around the corner and murdered us all in one fell swoop!
AND THEN IT HAPPENED AGAIN. But I didn't get any good pictures so you're spared. Needless to say, we didn't clear the Dynamis. But a few people got their relic drops so it wasn't all bad. We're going to give it another go on Thursday, and hopefully we'll have better luck toward the end than we did tonight. And hopefully I'll look less like a retarded noob. I don't even want to know how many people think I'm an idiot after some of the fumbles I made. >.<
Following this, I joined another group and knocked out Promyvion-Dem for the first Chains of Promathia mission. All I have left is Promyvion-Mea and I get Tavnazia access, so woot for that. Overall a very busy night for me!
Ahem.
Apparently Windurst is the most difficult of the three base city Dynamises, and we went in short on mages and damage dealers. I should start by saying that for the first hour of this, I had NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING. I hardly knew what I was doing by the time it was over, in fact. Mobs come flying in on us as soon as we enter from the residential area and for a minute I just stood there with this blank look on my face. What do I attack what do I do what do I do what do I do??? I got snapped at a few times, but once everyone learned that it was my first time they were a lot more patient with me and gave me pointers on what to do. I have a decent grasp on the strategy now, but I still have difficulty being able to tell what mobs need to be slept, stunned, and targeted when there's upwards of twenty mobs wailing on us at a time and sixty players to sift through. I think tonight may have been the first time I've ever actually used the mouse to pick out my targets (normally I use the controller to do everything).
We were doing well considering our roster for awhile, and then...
THIS HAPPENED. IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. Bitches came around the corner and murdered us all in one fell swoop!
AND THEN IT HAPPENED AGAIN. But I didn't get any good pictures so you're spared. Needless to say, we didn't clear the Dynamis. But a few people got their relic drops so it wasn't all bad. We're going to give it another go on Thursday, and hopefully we'll have better luck toward the end than we did tonight. And hopefully I'll look less like a retarded noob. I don't even want to know how many people think I'm an idiot after some of the fumbles I made. >.<
Following this, I joined another group and knocked out Promyvion-Dem for the first Chains of Promathia mission. All I have left is Promyvion-Mea and I get Tavnazia access, so woot for that. Overall a very busy night for me!
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
productive - Music:Heartless ~ The Fray

The progress on my Black Mage job in Final Fantasy XI has been going pretty well. My goal since getting back into the game was to reach level cap, level 75, by the end of June. This is easier said than done on your first job, because after a certain level, you hit an experience cap every five levels that prevents you from progressing without doing a quest to break the cap. The final level break quest involves obtaining a job testimony, and fighting a character called Maat upon delivery of the testimony, who is something of "master of the jobs"/"karate master" person who's given you all the level break quests in the past.
I nearly quit the game.
Last year while playing the game with John, I was lucky enough to get a Black Mage Testimony while we were working on my artifact gear. Having seen videos of the Maat fight, I was fairly confident I had nothing to worry about and walked into the burning circle non-plussed. An error in my macro writing wasted that Testimony pretty quickly, and I never even faced Maat. Had to get another Testimony, but this time solo. I'm able to fight the monsters that drop it on my own, however, due to the nature of my job it takes around ten minutes for me to kill one, an endless cycle of Nuke --> Nuke --> Sleep --> Rest MP ---> Repeat until dead. They're also pretty difficult to pull without linking, so I spent a lot of my time Sleepga-ing a trio of monsters that want me dead, frantically warping out of there, and making a long run back. Luckily, a new Black Mage Testimony dropped after the third kill. I take it to fight Maat.
I get one nuke in, and Maat casts Firaga III before I can get my Sleep spell off. One-shot death. Luckily, it doesn't take but another half hour or so to farm a new testimony, right?
Wrong.
SUDDENLY, Sapphire Quadavs decide that they no longer have any Black Mage Testimonies in stock. I kill, and I kill, and I kill. A whole bunch of nothing. I die many times, losing tons of experience points. I get help from random people passing through who feel bad for me, and after hours of plowing through them much faster than I had been on my own, still nothing. Several days of this go by. One death, in particular, had me all bent out of shape. Suddenly, the outdoors began to look so much more appealing to me. Real life friends? Those are fun. Excersize? Sports? Drugs? Trouble? Let's do it! To hell with the video game world, and to hell with Final Fantasy XI!
Jaded, I decide to give the game one more chance. A friend on a linkshell is going to the same place I'm at and needs help getting a coffer key for his artifact armor. I agree to help, and some other linkshell members ride in to assist as well. We slaughter the Quadav, and get two key drops. Two key drops. TWO DROPS OF SOMETHING MORE RARE THAN WHAT I'M GOING FOR. I've had it. I'm done. Goodbye, Final Fantasy XI. I inform my group that the next kill will be my last, and begin making plans to distribute my items and gil to friends.
And what do you know? The testimony finally drops!
I sat in Whitegate almost all night after this staring at the testimony, unsure of what to do. Should I go fight Maat immediately? Should I wait until all my magic skills are capped? Wait until I have the best gear possible for my level? I couldn't decide. The only thing I was sure of was that I did NOT want to go in there, get one-shotted again, and have to endure another week of farming a new testimony.
Eventually I caved in. I couldn't do anything in the game with this hanging over my head. Wordlessly, I shut off all chats and marched over to Maat with my testimony and entered the fight: this was going to decide my future in Vana'diel. I cast Freeze, and get ready to Stun just in case he goes for another -ga III spell. He begins casting Poison, and I go straight to Sleep him. Before I get it off, he comes RUNNING at me and I have heart failure while fumbling with my controls to survive...

A few spells later, Maat is defeated, I have 27 HP left, and I realize I've been holding my breath. It was fucking intense. XD I don't think a video game has ever had me so nervous or made my heart rate go up so high before. The rush of winning was pretty fucking awesome, I have to admit, and I love that I'll NEVER HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN. I feel like I graduated high school or something.
So, I'm in the clear to level to 75. Five more levels, and five more days left in June. I doubt that I'm going to make my goal, but that's okay. I've put a lot of work into this, and I feel pretty proud of what I've accomplished with my character. Mostly, I'm relieved that I didn't give up, and I won't be throwing Reyn away any time soon...
I nearly quit the game.
Last year while playing the game with John, I was lucky enough to get a Black Mage Testimony while we were working on my artifact gear. Having seen videos of the Maat fight, I was fairly confident I had nothing to worry about and walked into the burning circle non-plussed. An error in my macro writing wasted that Testimony pretty quickly, and I never even faced Maat. Had to get another Testimony, but this time solo. I'm able to fight the monsters that drop it on my own, however, due to the nature of my job it takes around ten minutes for me to kill one, an endless cycle of Nuke --> Nuke --> Sleep --> Rest MP ---> Repeat until dead. They're also pretty difficult to pull without linking, so I spent a lot of my time Sleepga-ing a trio of monsters that want me dead, frantically warping out of there, and making a long run back. Luckily, a new Black Mage Testimony dropped after the third kill. I take it to fight Maat.
I get one nuke in, and Maat casts Firaga III before I can get my Sleep spell off. One-shot death. Luckily, it doesn't take but another half hour or so to farm a new testimony, right?
Wrong.
SUDDENLY, Sapphire Quadavs decide that they no longer have any Black Mage Testimonies in stock. I kill, and I kill, and I kill. A whole bunch of nothing. I die many times, losing tons of experience points. I get help from random people passing through who feel bad for me, and after hours of plowing through them much faster than I had been on my own, still nothing. Several days of this go by. One death, in particular, had me all bent out of shape. Suddenly, the outdoors began to look so much more appealing to me. Real life friends? Those are fun. Excersize? Sports? Drugs? Trouble? Let's do it! To hell with the video game world, and to hell with Final Fantasy XI!
Jaded, I decide to give the game one more chance. A friend on a linkshell is going to the same place I'm at and needs help getting a coffer key for his artifact armor. I agree to help, and some other linkshell members ride in to assist as well. We slaughter the Quadav, and get two key drops. Two key drops. TWO DROPS OF SOMETHING MORE RARE THAN WHAT I'M GOING FOR. I've had it. I'm done. Goodbye, Final Fantasy XI. I inform my group that the next kill will be my last, and begin making plans to distribute my items and gil to friends.
And what do you know? The testimony finally drops!
I sat in Whitegate almost all night after this staring at the testimony, unsure of what to do. Should I go fight Maat immediately? Should I wait until all my magic skills are capped? Wait until I have the best gear possible for my level? I couldn't decide. The only thing I was sure of was that I did NOT want to go in there, get one-shotted again, and have to endure another week of farming a new testimony.
Eventually I caved in. I couldn't do anything in the game with this hanging over my head. Wordlessly, I shut off all chats and marched over to Maat with my testimony and entered the fight: this was going to decide my future in Vana'diel. I cast Freeze, and get ready to Stun just in case he goes for another -ga III spell. He begins casting Poison, and I go straight to Sleep him. Before I get it off, he comes RUNNING at me and I have heart failure while fumbling with my controls to survive...
A few spells later, Maat is defeated, I have 27 HP left, and I realize I've been holding my breath. It was fucking intense. XD I don't think a video game has ever had me so nervous or made my heart rate go up so high before. The rush of winning was pretty fucking awesome, I have to admit, and I love that I'll NEVER HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN. I feel like I graduated high school or something.
So, I'm in the clear to level to 75. Five more levels, and five more days left in June. I doubt that I'm going to make my goal, but that's okay. I've put a lot of work into this, and I feel pretty proud of what I've accomplished with my character. Mostly, I'm relieved that I didn't give up, and I won't be throwing Reyn away any time soon...
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Doomsday Averted ~ Rasputina

Today was fucking crazy.
I was doing my table work and noticed a few of our customers staring out the window and pointing at something. It had been raining pretty hard for almost an hour but had just let up, so I decide to go outside and look.
And what do you know! There's a funnel cloud off in the distance. So I get all excited, because I love crazy weather, and I run inside and make everyone come out and look at the funnel with me.
So we're all standing outside, and eventually the customers all come outside too. And we're excited, and taking pictures and video with our cellphones. Then I look up and notice that the clouds directly above us are spinning really fast. And the funnel cloud in the distance is getting bigger. And coming closer. And it's touching the ground.
Then I'm hit in the head with hail nearly the size of a baseball and everything in Southlands goes UP in the air in front of us. It dawns on me, "Oh shit. It's coming here."

This was the tornado while it was still cute and little and far off in the distance <3
It all happened so fast, it was fucking insane. Everyone bolted inside as the skies just opened up and we rushed all of our customers into the walk-in. From inside, I saw the trash can/ashtray that sits outside our door spin off the ground and go flying down the road until it crashed into the side of someone's car at Jim & Nick's. I kept sneaking peeks out the backdoor to see what was going on, whenever one of the mom figures weren't around to scream at me to get back in the back. I couldn't see the tornado, but I could see all this debris flying through the air and it was really surreal. It's one thing to see that sort of thing on TV, and a whole different matter to see it before your eyes. Especially when you have no idea what kind of storm you're dealing with or how dangerous it is. You know, you just see trees and trash cans flying in the air like something out of a movie. Except real. It sounded like the roof was going to cave in, and the doors and glass were all threatening to take flight at any moment. Really freaky.
Eventually it all ended and everyone kind of wanders back into the dining room. All the customers poke at their food, notice it's ice cold. Some resume their meals, others leave, and others wait around. It starts hailing some more, so I decide to hang out a bit to see what happens. We hear sirens outside and the police come flying in blocking the entrances to the mall, so we're all like, "What the fuck? Is there another one coming or something?" About ten minutes pass and this cop comes RUNNING into the store. "EVERYBODY OUT!" he screams and storms into the kitchen. "Turn everything off, lock the doors, leave NOW! We're evacuating the mall GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!"
Way to keep us calm, for real.

You can't tell, but these clouds were hella twisting and threatening to drop the tornado on our heads!
I was one of the first people out the door, and everyone runs to their cars in a hurry to get nowhere. This mass exodus took almost half an hour with all the traffic. The surrounding areas were not much better, since powerlines were knocked out and street lights weren't working. I was very dismayed to find my car covered in dents, and a big circular crack in the windshield. I'm still trying to figure out how this crack happened, it's almost a perfect circle. Magalie's brand new Rav4 took way worse damage. She was just leaving work when it happened, and was driving when all the hail came down. There are dents all over, and her windshield is completely DESTROYED.
It wasn't until I got home that I found out the mall was evacuated due to multiple gas leaks in the mall caused by the tornado. That's great. Gas leaks when lightning's all over the place. We're gonna blow up.
The theater area took the worst damage, with a car turned over and brick walls destroyed. Red Brick Pizza is also, like, GONE, which makes me sad. The area where Village Inn is took the least amount of damage. We're lucky, being hugged right against a big wall that I think blunted a lot of the wind. In any case, the mall is closed indefinitely to repair the gas leaks and clean up the tornado damages. Which means no work for a couple of days, so I guess that's kind of cool? And no major injuries in any of the tornadoes that hit Colorado today. Honestly, the tornado wasn't THAT major. I've been through tornadoes before, but A) it's been a long time, B) I've had a basement to go to, and C) I've never been right in the middle of one like that. It was one of the scariest experiences of my life. During this experience, I noticed that when I'm scared I can't stop laughing. I was seriously just standing there thinking about how hilarious it was that I was being paid to almost die.
I'm fucking wiped out.
I was doing my table work and noticed a few of our customers staring out the window and pointing at something. It had been raining pretty hard for almost an hour but had just let up, so I decide to go outside and look.
And what do you know! There's a funnel cloud off in the distance. So I get all excited, because I love crazy weather, and I run inside and make everyone come out and look at the funnel with me.
So we're all standing outside, and eventually the customers all come outside too. And we're excited, and taking pictures and video with our cellphones. Then I look up and notice that the clouds directly above us are spinning really fast. And the funnel cloud in the distance is getting bigger. And coming closer. And it's touching the ground.
Then I'm hit in the head with hail nearly the size of a baseball and everything in Southlands goes UP in the air in front of us. It dawns on me, "Oh shit. It's coming here."
This was the tornado while it was still cute and little and far off in the distance <3
It all happened so fast, it was fucking insane. Everyone bolted inside as the skies just opened up and we rushed all of our customers into the walk-in. From inside, I saw the trash can/ashtray that sits outside our door spin off the ground and go flying down the road until it crashed into the side of someone's car at Jim & Nick's. I kept sneaking peeks out the backdoor to see what was going on, whenever one of the mom figures weren't around to scream at me to get back in the back. I couldn't see the tornado, but I could see all this debris flying through the air and it was really surreal. It's one thing to see that sort of thing on TV, and a whole different matter to see it before your eyes. Especially when you have no idea what kind of storm you're dealing with or how dangerous it is. You know, you just see trees and trash cans flying in the air like something out of a movie. Except real. It sounded like the roof was going to cave in, and the doors and glass were all threatening to take flight at any moment. Really freaky.
Eventually it all ended and everyone kind of wanders back into the dining room. All the customers poke at their food, notice it's ice cold. Some resume their meals, others leave, and others wait around. It starts hailing some more, so I decide to hang out a bit to see what happens. We hear sirens outside and the police come flying in blocking the entrances to the mall, so we're all like, "What the fuck? Is there another one coming or something?" About ten minutes pass and this cop comes RUNNING into the store. "EVERYBODY OUT!" he screams and storms into the kitchen. "Turn everything off, lock the doors, leave NOW! We're evacuating the mall GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!"
Way to keep us calm, for real.
You can't tell, but these clouds were hella twisting and threatening to drop the tornado on our heads!
I was one of the first people out the door, and everyone runs to their cars in a hurry to get nowhere. This mass exodus took almost half an hour with all the traffic. The surrounding areas were not much better, since powerlines were knocked out and street lights weren't working. I was very dismayed to find my car covered in dents, and a big circular crack in the windshield. I'm still trying to figure out how this crack happened, it's almost a perfect circle. Magalie's brand new Rav4 took way worse damage. She was just leaving work when it happened, and was driving when all the hail came down. There are dents all over, and her windshield is completely DESTROYED.
It wasn't until I got home that I found out the mall was evacuated due to multiple gas leaks in the mall caused by the tornado. That's great. Gas leaks when lightning's all over the place. We're gonna blow up.
The theater area took the worst damage, with a car turned over and brick walls destroyed. Red Brick Pizza is also, like, GONE, which makes me sad. The area where Village Inn is took the least amount of damage. We're lucky, being hugged right against a big wall that I think blunted a lot of the wind. In any case, the mall is closed indefinitely to repair the gas leaks and clean up the tornado damages. Which means no work for a couple of days, so I guess that's kind of cool? And no major injuries in any of the tornadoes that hit Colorado today. Honestly, the tornado wasn't THAT major. I've been through tornadoes before, but A) it's been a long time, B) I've had a basement to go to, and C) I've never been right in the middle of one like that. It was one of the scariest experiences of my life. During this experience, I noticed that when I'm scared I can't stop laughing. I was seriously just standing there thinking about how hilarious it was that I was being paid to almost die.
I'm fucking wiped out.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
drained - Music:Voyager ~ Naoshi Mizuta (FFXI)

Last night, my mom had a baby. Of course, it was all really upsetting, because just before she was due, she had a rather ugly break up with my dad. As a result, he sent a pack of level 90 Yagudo to invade the hospital she was giving birth in, so everyone who tried to be there with her got attacked. It was a very frightening dream, and I'm starting to think I should maybe lay off the gaming a little bit? Then the realistic side of me realizes that's never going to happen, and continue about my geeky way.
It seems there's a pretty awesome E3 going on right now. Among the most interesting news for me was the announcement of Final Fantasy XIV: On-line.
This is interesting due to the striking similarities to Final Fantasy XI. I've spotted both Mithra and Galka in the trailer, and I spy a few Tarutaru in the art on the official website. Which excites me, because the game is gorgeous. At this point it's really just looking like FFXI 2.0, and I wants it.
I'm also panicking because they're doing a simultaneous worldwide release next year. There's still so much I want to accomplish in FFXI, I don't know if it can all be done in a year's time. But I don't want to miss out on the initial chaos and havoc that happens in a new MMO when nobody knows what they're doing, because those are some of my favorite memories of playing FFXI. I've got my work cut out for me.
Square-Enix have been talking about this MMO for a long time under the guise Rapture. FFXI, as much as I love it, was very experimental and attempted to accomplish a bit more than the hardware was capable of at the time. It's still limited by that. Really, World of Warcraft was the first to really break into the goldmine for MMORPG's. Gathering what they've learned over the years from FFXI, and taking queues from WoW's success, this should turn out to be a really amazing game. I have my fingers crossed that it will pose a threat to WoW's popularity. WoW is a decent game and all, but it's about as worth the attention it gets as Final Fantasy VII is of it's fame. Not very.
And I'm seeing more Final Fantasy fanboys bemoaning the fact that, yet again, an MMORPG gets numbered into the series. Really? Get over it. It's a number. How much does Final Fantasy VIII have in common with Final Fantasy II? Pretty much nothing. Apparently you haven't been paying attention: the Final Fantasy series is a cash cow of RPGs ranging from moderately good to pretty damned awesome, with recurring mascots used to sell the games. They have nothing to do with one another. Say it with me: CASH COW. CASH COW. CASH COW. Are we clear on that yet?
So FFXI & XIV are on-line. So you have to pay a subscription to play them. So you have to have decent internet to play. I have news for you: the year is 2009. A decent DSL connection is pretty much standard these days. Hell, people have decent internet on their cellphones. The cost of a subscription fee is equal to that of two fast food meals a month. And if WoW is any indication, MMO's are taking over the market. It's called a progression of technology. Did you whine and complain when the series went 3D? Nope. How about when they added voice acting? Well, yes, but then you got used to it. So while you're at it, get used to this too, because this is the direction that games are headed.
And if FFXI is any indication, MMO's are just as capable of providing an amazing story as any single player experience. Remember, this is technology evolving. MMO's allow the creators to continually build and shape the world you're playing in. There are endings, and then there's more. How many of you FFVII fanboys would love for something like that with your beloved lifestream world, whatever it was called? Judging from the sales of the FFVII compilation, quite a few. Imagine all of those extras and more rolled into a single game. What is there to complain about? Get off it.
But, that's just my opinion. To be honest, I'm not that big of a fan of the series to begin with so perhaps I should have no say in the matter. Regardless, they numbered it and that's the way it is. I think the game looks awesome. I could care less what it's called. I'm going to buy it. Simple as that.
In the meantime, I'm going to go nuke some Yagudo.
It seems there's a pretty awesome E3 going on right now. Among the most interesting news for me was the announcement of Final Fantasy XIV: On-line.
This is interesting due to the striking similarities to Final Fantasy XI. I've spotted both Mithra and Galka in the trailer, and I spy a few Tarutaru in the art on the official website. Which excites me, because the game is gorgeous. At this point it's really just looking like FFXI 2.0, and I wants it.
I'm also panicking because they're doing a simultaneous worldwide release next year. There's still so much I want to accomplish in FFXI, I don't know if it can all be done in a year's time. But I don't want to miss out on the initial chaos and havoc that happens in a new MMO when nobody knows what they're doing, because those are some of my favorite memories of playing FFXI. I've got my work cut out for me.
Square-Enix have been talking about this MMO for a long time under the guise Rapture. FFXI, as much as I love it, was very experimental and attempted to accomplish a bit more than the hardware was capable of at the time. It's still limited by that. Really, World of Warcraft was the first to really break into the goldmine for MMORPG's. Gathering what they've learned over the years from FFXI, and taking queues from WoW's success, this should turn out to be a really amazing game. I have my fingers crossed that it will pose a threat to WoW's popularity. WoW is a decent game and all, but it's about as worth the attention it gets as Final Fantasy VII is of it's fame. Not very.
And I'm seeing more Final Fantasy fanboys bemoaning the fact that, yet again, an MMORPG gets numbered into the series. Really? Get over it. It's a number. How much does Final Fantasy VIII have in common with Final Fantasy II? Pretty much nothing. Apparently you haven't been paying attention: the Final Fantasy series is a cash cow of RPGs ranging from moderately good to pretty damned awesome, with recurring mascots used to sell the games. They have nothing to do with one another. Say it with me: CASH COW. CASH COW. CASH COW. Are we clear on that yet?
So FFXI & XIV are on-line. So you have to pay a subscription to play them. So you have to have decent internet to play. I have news for you: the year is 2009. A decent DSL connection is pretty much standard these days. Hell, people have decent internet on their cellphones. The cost of a subscription fee is equal to that of two fast food meals a month. And if WoW is any indication, MMO's are taking over the market. It's called a progression of technology. Did you whine and complain when the series went 3D? Nope. How about when they added voice acting? Well, yes, but then you got used to it. So while you're at it, get used to this too, because this is the direction that games are headed.
And if FFXI is any indication, MMO's are just as capable of providing an amazing story as any single player experience. Remember, this is technology evolving. MMO's allow the creators to continually build and shape the world you're playing in. There are endings, and then there's more. How many of you FFVII fanboys would love for something like that with your beloved lifestream world, whatever it was called? Judging from the sales of the FFVII compilation, quite a few. Imagine all of those extras and more rolled into a single game. What is there to complain about? Get off it.
But, that's just my opinion. To be honest, I'm not that big of a fan of the series to begin with so perhaps I should have no say in the matter. Regardless, they numbered it and that's the way it is. I think the game looks awesome. I could care less what it's called. I'm going to buy it. Simple as that.
In the meantime, I'm going to go nuke some Yagudo.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
geeky - Music:Corey's Journey ~ Ed Harcourt (s. Darko)

Last night I watched s. Darko, the much bemoaned sequel to one of my all time favorite films, Donnie Darko. A completely non-official and non-canon sequel which has nothing to do with the original creator, Richard Kelly, I might add. But I was curious and had nothing better to do, so watch it I did.
The verdict: it's not as bad as people will have you think. It can't even compare to Donnie Darko, or most other movies I've seen, and it's not very memorable. At best it's visual fan fiction, but I have to admit it's not bad for being what it is.
The film first of all assumes that you understand Donnie Darko, and that you've seen the Director's Cut. If you haven't and don't, you're going to be completely lost because it doesn't bother explaining anything: Failure #1.
Failure #2: It tries WAY too hard to be Donnie Darko, and it gets annoying. This movie has little new to offer. I almost want to call it more of a tribute than a sequel. All of the same shit happens, and they try to sneak too many little things in. As a person that's seen Donnie Darko probably a million times after exposing new people to it, and watching it for myself, I noticed ALL of them, and IMO they were overused.. The red Firebird. Cellar door. The fast forward/backward sequences, the random slow-mo. Quotes that were taken directly from the original and reused VERY poorly. "I don't believe in that, but I believe in life's a bitch and then you die." "Wake up." -- said a million times. "They made me do it." -- out of nowhere. "That's... when the world... is GOING TO END." -- like a million times also. Really?
I think what disappointed me most was that they threw in all this little shit, but not ONCE did we get a "What's a fuckass?" reference. In a movie about Samantha. There's something very wrong about that.
Failure #3: There is no humor. It's so fucking serious.
WHERE THE MOVIE SUCCEEDS: When it's not trying to be Donnie Darko. They did a stellar job in every scene that was not ripped off the original, and I can't imagine why they didn't just try to make an honest-to-goodness sequel rather than a remake. It's clear that whoever wrote this movie is capable of producing good work. There were some scenes that had me floored, and I really liked some of the ideas presented. There was one scene that has it's roots in a Donnie scene, but they added a twist to it and actually IMPROVED on the original. I had an :O face the whole time.
Most of the acting is pretty mediocre, but Briana Evigan gave a great performance as Samantha's best friend, the best in the movie by far. Which is just weird to me, considering she's best known for her role in Step Up.
Also, the soundtrack is fucking amazing. I actually paid to download it iTunes because I couldn't find it anywhere else, that's how good it was!
There was a good movie somewhere in there. Some big shit was going on in this movie, bigger than anything that happened in Donnie that I was pretty interested in. But because they wasted so much time sampling Donnie, there wasn't much room for anything else and it just turned out to be incoherent. If I dreamt that Donnie Darko happened in the desert, and I was part of it, that's exactly what s. Darko would be. That's the best way I can think of to describe it. Blurred details, unexplainable sequence of events and all.
Don't go out of your way to see it, but if you happen to watch it for some reason or another, just try to keep in mind that it's not canon and try to enjoy it for what it is. You should, however, go out of your way to listen to the soundtrack. That's some good shit.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
busy - Music:Dark Clouds ~ Ed Harcourt (s. Darko)

Project Trico Trailer
WATCH IT HD.
The latest game from Team Ico for the PS3. I can't fucking wait. This and Heavy Rain are the two PS3 titles I'm most heavily anticipating. It looks like a combination of Ico and Shadow of the Colossus (=masterpiece, btw)... except with FALCOR. FALCOOOOOR!
Why do I get the feeling that this game is going to make me sob like a child? As if the horse wasn't enough! ;_;
WATCH IT HD.
The latest game from Team Ico for the PS3. I can't fucking wait. This and Heavy Rain are the two PS3 titles I'm most heavily anticipating. It looks like a combination of Ico and Shadow of the Colossus (=masterpiece, btw)... except with FALCOR. FALCOOOOOR!
Why do I get the feeling that this game is going to make me sob like a child? As if the horse wasn't enough! ;_;
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
ecstatic - Music:Trico music

FINALLY.
I don't expect any of you to know what I'm talking about, or care. But I've seriously been playing FFXI since it came out eight years ago. Each job has their own set of questable uber equipment called Artifact Armor. Essentially, you're nothing until you have your full set of AF gear. John helped me get all of this equipment awhile back (and Kalin too, I think). Tonight I at last hit level 60 and was able to equip it all. I'M FINALLY A REAL BLACK MAGE. Ahhh, it feels amazing. And people have been randomly examining me every where I go to see my equipment. :DDD
Only fifteen more levels and two level break quests to go before I hit level cap. So close, but so far!
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
productive - Music:Panic Switch ~ Silversun Pickups

( Spoilers Ahead )
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:The New Zero ~ Rasputina

It's kind of sad that the season finale for LOST airs next week, and I somehow missed that we were even reaching a climax. Spoilers ahead, obviously. I don't feel like cutting.
Season 5 is ranking right alongside Season 2 with me right now -- which is not a good thing. Okay, slightly above S2, but it's still not doing so hot. We've been chugging along without any direction for too long, and now that they've established some idea of where they're going with all this 70's nonsense, all of the characters begin to annoy me. Jack, you're cute with your total change in character and all, but you're an idiot. Kate, you've become an annoying and chatty third wheel, even to the audience. Sun, I can't tell if you've suddenly become a bad actress or if it's the same lines over and over you keep getting that are turning you into Harry Mason from Silent Hill. Sayid, your hair is too long; Rose, you're nowhere to be found; Sawyer, your face is bloody, etc... etc...
And it's somewhat amazing to me that the writers have managed to go nowhere so quickly, and yet still have so much going on that a majority of the cast have been swept under the rug with screen time enough for a reaction shot or two. The only person I care about at the moment is Miles and Doctor Candle Ingredients.
I guess it's not terrible, but I'm definitely bored. What a huge step down after S4. Come on, next Wednesday. Let's blow shit up and get it over with. The sooner we move on from here, the better.
Season 5 is ranking right alongside Season 2 with me right now -- which is not a good thing. Okay, slightly above S2, but it's still not doing so hot. We've been chugging along without any direction for too long, and now that they've established some idea of where they're going with all this 70's nonsense, all of the characters begin to annoy me. Jack, you're cute with your total change in character and all, but you're an idiot. Kate, you've become an annoying and chatty third wheel, even to the audience. Sun, I can't tell if you've suddenly become a bad actress or if it's the same lines over and over you keep getting that are turning you into Harry Mason from Silent Hill. Sayid, your hair is too long; Rose, you're nowhere to be found; Sawyer, your face is bloody, etc... etc...
And it's somewhat amazing to me that the writers have managed to go nowhere so quickly, and yet still have so much going on that a majority of the cast have been swept under the rug with screen time enough for a reaction shot or two. The only person I care about at the moment is Miles and Doctor Candle Ingredients.
I guess it's not terrible, but I'm definitely bored. What a huge step down after S4. Come on, next Wednesday. Let's blow shit up and get it over with. The sooner we move on from here, the better.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
disappointed - Music:Last of the Wilds ~ Nightwish

China's ultimatum: smoke or be fined.
This combined with the looming ban on e-cigarettes by the FDA is just astounding to me. Call me a conspiracy theorist, but the reach of the tobacco industry's power is simply astounding. Which, by the way, this ban thing is very annoying. There's nothing official yet, but we're expecting an announcement tomorrow. I finally found the easiest way to quit smoking I've ever encountered, and now they're going to make it difficult for me continue? Ugh.
Speaking of quitting smoking, I've been doing very well. I still get cravings for real cigarettes from time to time, mainly when I first wake up in the morning, after a meal, or at random periods during work. As a result, I did buy a pack of cigarettes a few days ago, but I've only smoked two of them over a period of four days. I think that's pretty good. The only drawback to this is that I'm fairly certain I'm going to be replacing one addiction with another, very similar addiction. But honestly, as long as I get myself down to a lower nicotine dose, I'm fine with that. It's the motions of smoking that I enjoy most, and if I can keep that while gradually reducing my risk of DYING, I'm happy.
This combined with the looming ban on e-cigarettes by the FDA is just astounding to me. Call me a conspiracy theorist, but the reach of the tobacco industry's power is simply astounding. Which, by the way, this ban thing is very annoying. There's nothing official yet, but we're expecting an announcement tomorrow. I finally found the easiest way to quit smoking I've ever encountered, and now they're going to make it difficult for me continue? Ugh.
Speaking of quitting smoking, I've been doing very well. I still get cravings for real cigarettes from time to time, mainly when I first wake up in the morning, after a meal, or at random periods during work. As a result, I did buy a pack of cigarettes a few days ago, but I've only smoked two of them over a period of four days. I think that's pretty good. The only drawback to this is that I'm fairly certain I'm going to be replacing one addiction with another, very similar addiction. But honestly, as long as I get myself down to a lower nicotine dose, I'm fine with that. It's the motions of smoking that I enjoy most, and if I can keep that while gradually reducing my risk of DYING, I'm happy.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Dirty Desire ~ Utada

GM to pull the plug on Pontiac car brand
T.T
Sad day. Sad, sad day. Admittedly, I haven't been a huge fan of a lot of their cars of late. After the final Grand Prix make (which still holds the key to my heart), nothing really caught my eye. If anything, they gave my eyes sores. And honestly, there wasn't much between the Firebird Formula and Grand Prix that I liked, although the later Grand Ams are pretty cute grocery-getters. BUT STILL! Pontiac was always my favorite brand since the juiced up Fiero my dad had as we were kids. I hoped that they'd be able to pull their shit together again, but I suppose not.
Wah.
T.T
Sad day. Sad, sad day. Admittedly, I haven't been a huge fan of a lot of their cars of late. After the final Grand Prix make (which still holds the key to my heart), nothing really caught my eye. If anything, they gave my eyes sores. And honestly, there wasn't much between the Firebird Formula and Grand Prix that I liked, although the later Grand Ams are pretty cute grocery-getters. BUT STILL! Pontiac was always my favorite brand since the juiced up Fiero my dad had as we were kids. I hoped that they'd be able to pull their shit together again, but I suppose not.
Wah.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
sad - Music:Forgiven ~ Within Temptation

I got my e-cigarette in the mail a couple days ago. For those of you who don't know what an e-cig is, there's a decent article about it here.
mychimaera told me about it a couple weeks ago. I immediately hopped on-line, did some research, and have become obsessed. The main appeal in it for me is the freedom to (guiltlessly) smoke in my room. I don't need to smoke everywhere I go; I'm fine with all the public smoking bans as long as I'm not drunk at a bar on a cold winter night. But not being able to smoke in the house has been torture. I don't think I can express how difficult it is to do something like focus on writing when I'm sitting there the whole time thinking about how much I want a cigarette. It keeps me out of that "zone" I want to reach, and even if I manage to hit that point it's gone the moment I stop to satisfy the nicotine craving. Even if I'm not writing, it takes so much time out of my day to stop what I'm doing to go outside and smoke a cigarette for each of the 30-some cigarettes I smoke in a day. At six minutes a piece, that's three hours a day spent smoking -- give or take. Nevermind the fact that I'm lazy, and outside is all the way upstairs.
To have this issue remedied without the stress of quitting smoking is a GODSEND. And as I've continued using it, I'm finding more and more benefits in the investment. A) It's loads cheaper than cigarettes. If you refill the liquid yourself and do your research on where to buy from, the cost of smoking is far, FAR lower than quoted in the article I linked. I think, at most, I'll be spending around fifty bucks a month to "vape", as opposed to the near $200 I'd be spending on cigarettes after the recent price increase. B) I'm still on the same pack of cigarettes I had the day it came in the mail. It does a really good job of satisfying that cigarette craving. Sadly, it doesn't have the same throat hit I sometimes want, so I'm having an analog cigarette here and there. But for the most part, I'm fine without. C) I'm starting to notice and be disgusted by the smell of cigarettes. This may or may not be such a good thing, but I view it as surprising progress. D) Starting today, I suddenly have tons more energy.
As far as the device itself, I bought a black m401 with a blue LED. I wasn't incredibly impressed at first. The pre-loaded cartridges that came with it gave me no throat hit at all, and the vapor was kind of weak. But as the atomizer began to break in, I started to load the cartridges with my own liquid, and in general learned how to use it better (you puff it differently than a cigarette), both of these problems are fixed. My biggest issue right now is that it's easy to forget when to stop puffing on it. Since it doesn't end, it's easy to just suck on it all day. As a result, I'm having a constant nicotine high like whoa.
It's nice. Tell your smoker friends about it. The investment will make both you and them much happier. My ultimate goal is to gradually reduce the amount of nicotine I'm using until I'm down to none. That will begin as soon as I'm fully off analog cigarettes.

To have this issue remedied without the stress of quitting smoking is a GODSEND. And as I've continued using it, I'm finding more and more benefits in the investment. A) It's loads cheaper than cigarettes. If you refill the liquid yourself and do your research on where to buy from, the cost of smoking is far, FAR lower than quoted in the article I linked. I think, at most, I'll be spending around fifty bucks a month to "vape", as opposed to the near $200 I'd be spending on cigarettes after the recent price increase. B) I'm still on the same pack of cigarettes I had the day it came in the mail. It does a really good job of satisfying that cigarette craving. Sadly, it doesn't have the same throat hit I sometimes want, so I'm having an analog cigarette here and there. But for the most part, I'm fine without. C) I'm starting to notice and be disgusted by the smell of cigarettes. This may or may not be such a good thing, but I view it as surprising progress. D) Starting today, I suddenly have tons more energy.
As far as the device itself, I bought a black m401 with a blue LED. I wasn't incredibly impressed at first. The pre-loaded cartridges that came with it gave me no throat hit at all, and the vapor was kind of weak. But as the atomizer began to break in, I started to load the cartridges with my own liquid, and in general learned how to use it better (you puff it differently than a cigarette), both of these problems are fixed. My biggest issue right now is that it's easy to forget when to stop puffing on it. Since it doesn't end, it's easy to just suck on it all day. As a result, I'm having a constant nicotine high like whoa.
It's nice. Tell your smoker friends about it. The investment will make both you and them much happier. My ultimate goal is to gradually reduce the amount of nicotine I'm using until I'm down to none. That will begin as soon as I'm fully off analog cigarettes.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
excited - Music:Precious Things ~ Tori Amos

I just finished watching the Caprica pilot. I wasn't particularly excited about it, as the entire concept of the show sounded ridiculous to me. A prequel to Battlestar Galactica. What is there to tell that isn't already told us in the first ten seconds of every BSG episode ever? Humans created robots, robots got cranky, made humans go boom.
Annoyingly, I was fascinated throughout the hour and a half long episode. It's very different from Galactica, but all of the same good character drama is there. It really reminded me a LOT of the movie Gattaca. I enjoyed it, but I'm weary of getting too into it after the pretentious mess Galactica made of itself in the end. I no longer trust Ronald D. Moore. Luckily, by the time the actual show airs I'll have forgotten all about it. Give us the pilot now and make us wait a year for the show? I really do not understand "SyFy's" way of doing things.
The weather has been gorgeous today. Overcast, and rainy most of the day. I'm a little sad that it's going to be turning into snow by tomorrow. Someone needs to inform the weather that it's definitely April. Knock it off. You wasted all winter with sunny weather -- that doesn't mean you get to cut into spring with snow. Don't get me wrong, I love snow when it's falling. But I hate driving in it, and I hate it's lingering effects. Also, it loves to only dump snow when I have to commute to work in it. Early in the morning, before snow plows decide to do anything about it. Bah humbug.
My brain is a roller coaster today. I need to slow down.
Aaand, the eleventh episode of Pushing Daisies finally showed up in english. So I'm gonna go watch that.
Annoyingly, I was fascinated throughout the hour and a half long episode. It's very different from Galactica, but all of the same good character drama is there. It really reminded me a LOT of the movie Gattaca. I enjoyed it, but I'm weary of getting too into it after the pretentious mess Galactica made of itself in the end. I no longer trust Ronald D. Moore. Luckily, by the time the actual show airs I'll have forgotten all about it. Give us the pilot now and make us wait a year for the show? I really do not understand "SyFy's" way of doing things.
The weather has been gorgeous today. Overcast, and rainy most of the day. I'm a little sad that it's going to be turning into snow by tomorrow. Someone needs to inform the weather that it's definitely April. Knock it off. You wasted all winter with sunny weather -- that doesn't mean you get to cut into spring with snow. Don't get me wrong, I love snow when it's falling. But I hate driving in it, and I hate it's lingering effects. Also, it loves to only dump snow when I have to commute to work in it. Early in the morning, before snow plows decide to do anything about it. Bah humbug.
My brain is a roller coaster today. I need to slow down.
Aaand, the eleventh episode of Pushing Daisies finally showed up in english. So I'm gonna go watch that.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
listless - Music:Tear You Apart ~ She Wants Revenge

So, I bought Mark Z. Danielewski's Only Revolutions yesterday. When I arrived home with it, my brain promptly imploded when I could not figure out how I was supposed to hold the book, or which side to start on. I think this one will have to be saved for a day when I have more patience. In any case, Barnes & Noble is selling the hardcover in their Bargain Priced section for $5.98, so if you've been looking to pick it up there's no better time to do it.
Three tragedies have struck my gaming world, sending it completely askew and out of control:
Three tragedies have struck my gaming world, sending it completely askew and out of control:
- Silent Hill is not only being remade, it's being reimagined by Climax, those horrible people that cranked out Silent Hill: Origins (nevermind the fact that I've hardly played it). Worse yet, it's being released primarily for the Wii. Don't get me wrong, I've been wanting to see Silent Hill updated for a long time. However, I have a not-so-secret grudge against the Wii for it's lack of HD support. I'm a graphics whore. I'll admit it. And Wii games look like shit on a good TV. The whole thing kind of defeats the purpose in remaking a game for me. Luckily, they've also announced ports for the PS2 and the PSP. See, the PSP is something my graphics slutiness can work with.
But still, I have some reservations about this whole, "Harry has GPS and a digital camera" business. If anyone's paid attention to the Silent Hill timeline, it can be argued that the original game was set in the eighties. You know, before every person and their mother had that sort of thing. And a lot of the charm in Silent Hill for me was the dirty, oldness of it. The fact that nothing in that town was taken care of gave it character, and the fact that elevators were the only electronic things that worked furthered the isolation. I don't know. I kind of wish they would just leave the series alone now. - Shadow of the Colossus is being made into a movie. Written by the man who wrote Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun-Li. What. The. Fuck. Yet another video game masterpiece about to be butchered on the silver screen.
- I'm playing World of Warcraft. A little bit. More on that later.
- Location:Centennial, CO
- Mood:
bored

And now for some words on the Battlestar Galactica series finale, one week later...
( BSG finale spoilers )
( BSG finale spoilers )
- Location:Dry Creek
- Mood:
cold

- Location:Dry Creek
- Mood:
impressed - Music:Shehn-Vih Lahn Diglehs ~ Gabriela Robin

Yes, that is a picture of a Harry Potter book slathered across my LiveJournal. Yes, that means I read the thing.
( Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Review (Spoilers, if it matters) )
- Location:Dry Creek
- Mood:
sick - Music:The Memory of Trees ~ Enya

Some of you may be aware that there is a twin of me walking around somewhere. I may have even posted about it. Many a-time have I heard from a friend swearing up and down that they saw me some place, incredulous that I was insisting that, indeed, it was not me at all. This has proven to be one of my greatest curiosities in life. Who is this person? What is his name? What business does he think he has, walking around looking like me?
Years I have pondered these questions, until today. Today! The day that I walk into work to find everyone gathering around me excitedly, saying that I have a twin and there's a picture of him in the paper. The only trouble is that the paper he's in seems to have gone missing. Thrown in the trash by some troll trying to keep me from him, perhaps, and certainly absent from all of today's papers. But this will not stop me, no! I rolled up my sleeves and went dumpster diving! I tore through every bag I found until at last I had found the picture in question, crinkled up and drenched in old eggs:

Ah-HAH! I have found you, imposter! Or have I? It's hard to say, really, but the resemblance is still undeniable, even the stance in the way he's sitting. I've tried finding more pictures of him on-line, but nothing's turned up but a color version minus the eggs. In any case, I will be keeping an eye on this person until proven otherwise.
Years I have pondered these questions, until today. Today! The day that I walk into work to find everyone gathering around me excitedly, saying that I have a twin and there's a picture of him in the paper. The only trouble is that the paper he's in seems to have gone missing. Thrown in the trash by some troll trying to keep me from him, perhaps, and certainly absent from all of today's papers. But this will not stop me, no! I rolled up my sleeves and went dumpster diving! I tore through every bag I found until at last I had found the picture in question, crinkled up and drenched in old eggs:
Ah-HAH! I have found you, imposter! Or have I? It's hard to say, really, but the resemblance is still undeniable, even the stance in the way he's sitting. I've tried finding more pictures of him on-line, but nothing's turned up but a color version minus the eggs. In any case, I will be keeping an eye on this person until proven otherwise.
- Location:Dry Creek
- Mood:
curious - Music:Be the One ~ The Ting Tings

Cool important people should stop being important so that I can be friends with them. This is the conclusion I've reached today. I've found myself somewhat enamored with Felicia Day. It happened overnight. I was rather surprised by it myself. John and I hunkered down to marathon her internet show, The Guild, and it pretty much sold me. She's one of those can-do-it-all girls, very talented, very funny in that timid, awkward girl sort of way. Combine that with her being a gamer, and further by her mentions of Robin Hobb on Twitter... I'm in love.
And in case any of you haven't seen The Guild, I'm going to link you, because you don't know what you're missing. I suppose you'll lose the appeal if you've never been sucked into an MMORPG, but who hasn't these days?
Watch The Guild!
And in case any of you haven't seen The Guild, I'm going to link you, because you don't know what you're missing. I suppose you'll lose the appeal if you've never been sucked into an MMORPG, but who hasn't these days?
Watch The Guild!
- Location:Dry Creek
- Mood:
impressed - Music:Lightness ~ Death Cab for Cutie

- 18:00 my boyfriend doesn't approve of me having my phone in my pocket, apparently #
- 01:14 Day 1 of kinda no smoking (meaning I smoked 2 refries fished out of ash trays): very difficult at times, strangely successful at others. #
- 01:17 Veronica Mars TV movie? Sounds like it's going to happen. I want it! tinyurl.com/83pxkx #

